[BigHead50]

Hello count pornula

I to lost my Dad, he was only 51....I will never get over it, he worked so hard to raise 4 kids, and try to have a life...

He was honest, hard working, and a desent Man, but still cancer got him, just when he could start enjoying life after kids....

I think of him Everyday, and Smile, thinking of the Wonderful times we had together when I was young, fishing, hunting, camping, building houses, and I even helped him build a 2 seater helicopter called a scorpian, and took the first flight with him...He had a pretty full life, was Always building or fixing something or helping a neighbor or friend out, but he still got called Home to soon....

I just have to get busy when I get to down about it and just try and focus on the good times...

I lost my daughter just after her 21 birthday from a drug overdose, and this has crippled me for the past 10 years...She had so much to live for, a daughter that the state took away, and I cannot see or even know where she is, and so many friends that miss her dearly, it just has stunded me so bad I have not had a steady job in the past 10 years, and have had serious depression and drug problems since this happened...I just go day to day trying to give the pain to God, and make it through another day...

It does get a little better with time, but I will always have a giant hole where my baby girl is missing from, but again, I try and focus on the wonderful times I had when she was a baby and I could hold and take care of her, and all the walks and talks I was luckey enough to have with her before the problems began...

Hang in there Friend, the pain will get to be less with time, and just keep a Happy thought for him, and try to smile inside when you think of him....
And if it starts to get to hard to take the pain, try and give some of it to God, he will help you through....

I am sorry for your loss, Thanks for Sharing, I thought of my dad and my daughter just now, and Smiled....

BigHead50